So against my better judgment and some OMG to Plums and Mrs. Fine, I texted back to Irish Boy(http://goldenassadventures.tumblr.com/post/98475506684/this-morning-i-received-a-text-message-from) … I knew it was going to open a can of worms but I had to, well at least I thought I had to…. You know when you have that nagging nag at the back of your mind, that won’t let you go, that’s kind of how I felt about IB. Plus I needed to get my closure, which I did!
My text was simple: Hey, I’m doing great. Glad to hear you moved to Philly. You’ve been wanting to go back. Good luck there.
I knew I was going to get a response.
IB: What’s your deal? Are you seeing someone
I took my time with my text: Yes I am in a relationship
I really didn’t want to tell him… He didn’t deserve to know, but then it’s better to put the dick out of his misery, especially since I did finally respond.
IB: Grat to hear. Be safe
Grat? Think he missed the “e”. Be safe? What does that mean, be safe? Totally irritated me. He really knows how to get under my skin…. And not in the good way, anymore! Instead of saying what does that mean, be safe, I took the high road and said:
I always am. I hope you are happy and enjoy your life in Philly
Now the next few responses from him, summed up our “relationship” and why I’m so happy I finally let him go.
He said that if my situation ever changed let him know and whenever I’m in Philly to call him, only if my situation changed. He was sorry for being retarded and he didn’t realize the catch he had.
No kidding! He had 4 years of my life to figure it out and he didn’t until I was gone… Which of course I told him not before I let him know that I published my comic book (http://www.amazon.com/Adventures-Golden-S-S-Begin-Book-ebook/dp/B00L1M0DFS/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1411792881&sr=8-2&keywords=the+adventures+of+golden+a.s.s.). I told him about the comic book because not only is he going to be a villain in it, he was always encouraging of the book and I want more people to buy it! A shameless plug, regardless of where it comes from!
He said congrats for my book, he was happy for me and that I found someone to keep around.
Yea I found someone who realized right away how incredible I am and didn’t want to let me go. That’s a guy you fall in love with and build a future together. Not a guy who when he’s not available, away on job sites, text messages you non stop to say how much he misses you and wants to be with you but when he comes home, goes radio silent. And then blames his job for not communicating…
Well when I told him about the comic book, of course I told him the name and where to buy it, (Amazon), I thought he would go to amazon and get it…. Little did I think he would google it and come to my website… And on the website go to my blog… Where he read my last entry…. About him….
He read it… He thought it was “interesting”… He liked it and appreciated the fact that I didn’t use his name and then said he was sorry for bothering me and it wouldn’t happen again….
I told him that if I hadn’t met the man I’m with now, he still probably wouldn’t realize what he had. You want what you can’t have….
He said he deleted my number. He had no idea I didn’t want him to contact me and he’s sorry for interrupting my day.
I tried to back track about my blog. Down play the severity of what I had written, I don’t know why. I didn’t want him to feel bad but then I thought, GOOD! I’m glad he read it. I’m glad he knows that’s how I feel. I was trying to be diplomatic about the whole thing via text message but I really wanted to give it to him for wasting my time all these years and not realizing what was right in front of him. Now that I think about it, he saw me, used me, abused me and knew but didn’t truly want and/or wasn’t ready. Although, moving to Philly and then reaching out to me, what did he think, I would hop on a plane and fly there?!?! I may have driven uninvited when he lived close, but a plane ride is something different.
I ended it with : I wish you the best and hope that next time a girl comes into your life, you realize her greatness before you lose her
I thought that would be it but he said he heard me loud and clear… He deleted my number and I wouldn’t hear from him but he’d be reading my blog….
So if he truly is reading this, then I leave him with this, since I never responded:
I deleted your number when you invited me to London last year(http://goldenassadventures.tumblr.com/post/64966778802/my-irritating-itch-got-the-better-of-me-and-i) and I said yes, then you went MIA on me for the last time! I hope you do finally leave me alone because I don’t want to waste another moment of my life regretting having met you. I’m with someone who is incredible. And if by some disastrous occurrence that forces him and I, to no longer be together, I will NEVER contact you. I deserved so much better than you ever gave me. You may have a big dick but you should really learn how to use it better and I faked pretty much all of my orgasms.