You know when you are so tired, you get home from work and all you want to do is curl up on your couch and veg….

That is my exact feeling right now.  But I will add that I shall be gobbling down a nice bowl of spaghetti and will be washing all that spaghetti with a healthy glass of whiskey and root beer….  

All while watching Friday Night Lights…. My new little guilty passion show… I know it’s over but that’s what’s so great about Amazon Prime, I can watch back to back to back episodes with no commercials!!!!  

Sigh… My Friday night is sooo thrilling!!!!!  

I love Non Adventure nights like this…..

So I’ve been with MG now for 10 months…..  Can’t believe it has gone by in a blink of an eye.  This year is flying and the end is definitely not in sight.

Coming home from SDCC2014, MG and I had a heart to heart.  It was a tough conversations with many tears and running noses, mostly on my part. But it was a good, eye opening, honest conversation.

Things have been great between us but there has always been this lingering small dark cloud hanging over us.  My comic book and blog.  

So upon my return from SD, things came out, feelings and emotions and thoughts all spilled forth.  

It hurt to hear the honesty of how MG felt all these months but for a relationship to survive, grow and move forward, complete honesty needs to be had.  

There has always been a slight mistrust on MG’s part about me.  About my comic book when I finally revealed it to him, about my blog and all the guys that I went on dates with and wrote about.  He worried that he was just another one of those guys I wrote about but he feared that I made fun of them/him.  That even down in SD, while attached to him, would I stray to further my comic book.  Would I be put into a situation that would betray him and our relationship.  Would I take advantage of him, am I taking advantage of him.

He told me he had 3 options with our situation.  Either, 1) Keep it inside and try to come to terms with it on his own, ultimately being miserable.  2) Finally open up and talk to me about his feelings and insecurities or 3) Break up with me.

He said, the first option he has been trying to do but failing because he has felt terrible with the pit of his stomach constantly in knots.  So that truly wasn’t an option.  The third option, not really being an option because he loves me so much and can’t stand being apart from me for more than a day, breaking up wouldn’t resolve anything.  So then, option 2 would be it.  But he was having difficulty figuring out a way to open up to me.  He ultimately also decided a conversation needed to be had because his gut said to trust me, that I wouldn’t do anything to hurt us or to cheat on him.  

I listened to him.  Didn’t get mad.  Was only hurt because he was feeling hurt all these months about my comic book, my blog.  I tried to reassure him that I never made fun of my dates, I was only telling a realistic view about dating and the things guys and girls do on dates.  I never wanted to hurt anyone because the truth of the matter, I never want to be hurt.  

Totally live by the Golden Rule….

Reassured him that down in SD, every guy that tried/attempted to hit on me, knew instantly that I was spoken for and didn’t stand a change.  But I did help them score, for I was the ultimate wing woman!  

I explained to him that for a relationship, for our relationship to work, we need to constantly communicate our feelings, be it good or bad.  That when we feel annoyed or insecure about something, we need to address it and move on from there. Keeping things inside only leads to a huge blow up and resentment.  

The best relationships are those that constantly want to keep the other happy but once you stop caring how the other is feeling, then the relationship is over.  

He expressed how proud he was of me having published my comic book.  He tried to hate the book and what it represented but he couldn’t because I loved it so much.  He thought of how he could help me further the sales.  He contemplated about buying 2 books a day to make it look like I was selling or he thought he would give me money so I could have my book printed.  (WHAT AN AMAZING MAN!!!!) He wants me to succeed.  He was just hurt that I kept it to myself for so long, kept it from him that when I revealed it was too late for him, he was already so deeply in love with me, there was no turning away.  

I kept it away because I wasn’t sure of how I felt and there really isn’t a point to reveal until I was sure how I felt about him and where our relationship was going.  Remember how I freaked out when he tried to kiss me on our 5th date!!!!! 

When all was said and everything was laid out in front of us, we felt better.  We understand where each other stands.  What our feelings are and how to move forward.  And we are moving forward.  We even discussed briefly our living situation……

No, we are not moving together!  He lives far away and I live here.  And he wants to go back to school, so no further discussion will be had for another 3 years.  Plus there is no ring on this finger, so there will be no moving in together!  

I don’t want to move in until I’m married.  I want it to feel different, I want to start building a life together when we are married.  Not continue a life of roommates that now are official.  

It’s old fashion, I know, but deep down I’m still a hopeless romantic who may have found her Prince!  Now have to see how the rest of the Adventure plays out…. 

You know when you return home from being a way for a little bit, things just seem to hit you at full steam?  Well that’s what happened after SDCC2014…

SDCC2014 was another learning and rewarding venture.  I ended up not having to sleep on the floor!!!!!  YAY!!!!!!  I sweetly asked the maintenance man, who also delivered the towels, when you requested more, if I could have a roll away….  It never hurts to keep asking until someone eventually gives in, he said “Yes, how many do you need?”  YES!!!!!!!  No roughing it on the floor for me!!!!!!  

I promoted like crazy.  Mingled with everyone.  Introduced myself to as many publishers as possible.  Talk to artists and writers and creators.  My skin grew thicker as some harsh comments were expressed about my comic book but over all, at the end of the end, I AM PROUD of what I put out there.  No one can take away the hard work that I put into creating and self publishing.  

Not everyone is going to like what I put out there.  And I’m ok with that.  

I love my book and will continue writing and publishing more stories because my hobby is fulfilling me and no one can take it away from me!

Light my path…

Light my path…

I have made it down for SDCC2014!  It was a busy morning, with last minute errands and gatherings but I’m here!!!  I nearly fell asleep on the road a couple of times.  Didn’t get much sleep with the excitement of this weekend and a little hiccup with MG.  

Our last night together for 5 days definitely didn’t go on as planned.  We ended up spending most of it apart because I was caught up trying to accomplish something for my Comic Book.  It was definitely not ideal and sadness was had but hopefully when we see each other in 5 days, we’ll be sooo ecstatic that the memory of how we spent the last night together will be erased…..

My first afternoon at SDCC, was spent wandering the streets.  I wanted to get a feel of what was happening outside.  I have decided that this year, I shall wander more in the fresh air then stay coupe up the air conditioned mayhem of the convention halls.  

After my wander about, I met up with an amazing friend who is letting me crash in one of the rooms she has for her employees.  So once again, I shall be sharing with adorable college boys!  BUT this year, instead of 2, I get 4!!!!  Now before someone starts thinking some naughty thoughts, I am happily involved and there is no time for an orgy on this work trip!  

With 5 people in a room, it makes the sleeping arrangements a tad more complicated for technically only 4 should are allowed, due to fire hazards and let’s be real, the hotel wants to make more money by requiring you to book more hotel rooms for more people!  

Request for a roll away denied due to that pesky fire hazard…  So how do 5 people sleep in 2 double beds????  And the double beds are more like full sized beds, and 2 people barely fit comfortably….  That leaves the floor…  And since I’m the crasher…  Good thing I like my mattresses to be firm!  

Sooo here is my bed….

  Nice and cozy.  I took all the blankets and comforters to create this little nook.  It’s actually quite comfortable!  Well…  We’ll see how it feels when I actually have to sleep on it….  

You have to suffer for your craft…. That’s the saying right????  Sleeping while surrounded by adorable college boys isn’t all that bed. And sleeping on the floor in a hotel room is my version of camping….  Definitely roughing it here!!!!

I am off to shower and prepare for what lays in store for me on my first night here….  

Shhhhh….

Shhhhh….

I have an apartment full of guys, all trying to figure out my oven… And no it’s not code of anything!!!

I have an old school oven and it’s been leaking gas ever since I moved into my apartment… I finally have decided to get it fixed, thus it takes 4 guys in my small kitchen to figure out how/why the gas pipes are not lining up correctly.  It’s been a long process!  

There is a joke in there…..

While they discuss the problem and fix it, I’m working at my newly organized desk….

Slowly putting together the finishing touches for San Diego Comic Con!!!!!  I still have much to do….  Lots of teaser pages to print up.  

I’m so excited this year, for this year I can FINALLY say, I’M PUBLISHED and you can PURCHASE my book on AMAZON!!!!!  

I”m hungry….  I’m trying to limit my intake of processed carbs before SDCC…. So that means I shall be constantly hungry!!!  Ok not really because I’ll be loading up on protein….

I also am working on new episodes and some new plot twists in the upcoming story lines!  

This are full steam ahead for the Adventures!!!!

"My mind is full of thoughts…
A meandering of words,
Cloistered together to form sense of my minds energy.."

— Gwendolynn Everlast-The Adventures of Golden A.S.S.

Good Morning Sunday!!!!!

This is my first carefree Sunday in FOREVER!!!! I slept in… Well after saying see ya later to MG.  He left for the race track for a practice round….

After some crazy dozing dreams, I’m fully recharged and ready to tackle the mess I have created in my little nook since I haven’t had a moment in the last few months to breath!  

I have set up my little office desk and currently utilizing the functionality of my gorgeous secretary!  I feel so grown-up by sitting at a proper desk, writing, instead of sitting on my couch with a lap tray with paper every where.  I’m trying to turn a new leaf and be even more organized with my life and throw crap away!

With the events happening with my landlord, which I will give a full account when all is settled, I’m cleaning shop.  I’m letting go of waste and freeing myself. Plus if I’m ever going to move into my tiny house, I’m going to have to eliminate A LOT of junk!  

So this morning, I’m going through old paper work, shredding and tossing useless paper.  

As well as taking a few spins on my pole.  My pole is looking lonely.  I should probably spin around it more, and actually give MG his Christmas present of a dance… 

Have to go buy a new mini fridge.  My 6 yr old mini has served me well but is ready to retire and I need an upgrade.  Although I shall not be buying a bigger one, for it is a waste since I hardly cook or store anything in it but left overs!  Pathetic I know…. My mom keeps urging me to cook and there is a small part of me needs to learn all the magnificent foods she wants to teach me but I AM LAZY!!!!!  One day….. Before it’s too late…

And I want to write!!!  I came across old letters and poems I wrote during my last major break up and boy did it trigger my creative outlet.  Reading through those passages, I am really proud of how I handled the break up and what I said to myself to help during those dark moments.  I was so insightful and many of the things I wrote about the healing and moving on process and finding someone more amazing and wonderful, all came true!  

It’s fun to go over those lost writings, to remind you of how you came to the current spot you are at, right now. 

With that, I’m off!  I’ll try to be better at writing.  Hopefully things will start to settle down after Comic Con, which is happening next week!  Of course I will be giving a full account of what happens!  Sooooo excited!!!!!

Surround yourself

Surround yourself

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