I met Mediocre Guy ….. A year ago today, I met the man who would change my world… A year ago today, I met my partner… Who knew that a year ago, my life would be where it is at this current adventure!
It’s a bit unnerving to looking back and see how I came to this place. All the crap that I put up with and all the crap that I spewed….
If I hadn’t met MG, I think, I would still be on the same path, of mindlessly going through the boys. Hooking up with those less deserving and still allowing myself to get sucked into the bullshit of Irish boy…
Sometimes I wonder about those adventures that I am no longer going on. I think about the allure of being single and wonder…. Especially since I’m on the year mark…
Then I reach deep down into my gut and know that MG is by far the greatest guy for me at this moment. I would love to say FOREVER but who knows what forever is and how long that truly last….
People grow and change at different stages of their lives. MG is perfect for my stage now. I want to say he will always be perfect and I hope that we do last forever but a part of me is being realistic. Unless you find a partner that wants to grow and change with you and you can find ways to keep falling back in love with each other, it’s difficult to last for that forever….
I want MG to be that partner. I feel that we are on that grow and change path together. But I also don’t want to jinx it by saying we are forever.
It’s only been a year. We are completely comfortable and at ease with each other. I want to say we are ourselves and for the most part we are ourselves. So time will tell if we are forever…
A year ago today…..
With the decision to write more, at least once a week. My head fills with stories that I have missed telling…. One story that needs to be mentioned at this time, is the fact that my parents met MG’s parents!!!!!!!!!
And so the meeting of the parents happened. The Sunday BBQ went off without a hitch. Of course everyone was on their best behavior but that is to be expected. What other way is there to behave when meeting people for the first time!
Everyone seem to have enjoyed the other’s company. Hours went by very effortlessly…. Conversations flowed…. Meeting of the minds….
Holidays are going to be much easier now that everyone gets along….
Now that the parents have meet, several people think that a ring will soon by placed upon my finger…. NO WAY!!!!!! We’re barely at a year and still have so much learning of one another.
Besides, why rush??? We’re definitely not in a hurry to live together, even though we spend 5 nights together a week…. Definitely not in a hurry to start a family…. For yours truly doesn’t want to pop a baby out and actually raise one! MG, I think does want to have a kid and I’m afraid that one of these days in the distant future, we’ll have a bridge to cross….
But until then, our families will continue to hang out and get to know each other, as he and I are continuing to know one another…
Complacent in your life…. I have been a horrible writer of late! It has been well over a month since my last posting.
It’s amazing how fast the days go by when you fall into a routine and that routine doesn’t involve the internet…..
In a way, it’s a good thing. I’m off living, enjoying life, going on adventures and creating memories… But on the other hand, a small part of me, feels the need to write it all down and tell the world!
I think the reason why I have been so lax in writing and telling, is because MG, is not a big fan of revealing all to the world. I mean, he doesn’t even have a Facebook account!!!!! Which is really nice to tell you the truth.
I find myself, checking in less and less. Posting pictures less and less because do I really care what people think of what I am doing?!?! Not really! And if the only way my “friends” know what I’m doing is by me posting on FB, then perhaps they aren’t really that great of friends that they can’t pick up the phone and actually ask me how I am doing…… And vice versa!
Although there are moments when I’m off on an adventure and I think, Oh I know the perfect headline to write and the words start to flow in my head of all the things I want to tell…. And then when the adventure is over, I let it linger in my head and it never gets written down…. Majority of it has to do with laziness….
I have a sense of laziness…. Perhaps it’s due to my contentness in life, of where I am at this point of my journey and how I am enjoying every moment without the pressure of having to write every detail. The downside of not writing, is you forget faster and the joy of coming across a written adventure is lost.
So, like exercise, I must make a point to write. At least once a week. To keep abreast of my adventure.
Plus, we’re coming up on my 1 year since I met MG!!!!!!! A year goes by in a blink of an eye……
You know when you are so tired, you get home from work and all you want to do is curl up on your couch and veg….
That is my exact feeling right now. But I will add that I shall be gobbling down a nice bowl of spaghetti and will be washing all that spaghetti with a healthy glass of whiskey and root beer….
All while watching Friday Night Lights…. My new little guilty passion show… I know it’s over but that’s what’s so great about Amazon Prime, I can watch back to back to back episodes with no commercials!!!!
Sigh… My Friday night is sooo thrilling!!!!!
I love Non Adventure nights like this…..
So I’ve been with MG now for 10 months….. Can’t believe it has gone by in a blink of an eye. This year is flying and the end is definitely not in sight.
Coming home from SDCC2014, MG and I had a heart to heart. It was a tough conversations with many tears and running noses, mostly on my part. But it was a good, eye opening, honest conversation.
Things have been great between us but there has always been this lingering small dark cloud hanging over us. My comic book and blog.
So upon my return from SD, things came out, feelings and emotions and thoughts all spilled forth.
It hurt to hear the honesty of how MG felt all these months but for a relationship to survive, grow and move forward, complete honesty needs to be had.
There has always been a slight mistrust on MG’s part about me. About my comic book when I finally revealed it to him, about my blog and all the guys that I went on dates with and wrote about. He worried that he was just another one of those guys I wrote about but he feared that I made fun of them/him. That even down in SD, while attached to him, would I stray to further my comic book. Would I be put into a situation that would betray him and our relationship. Would I take advantage of him, am I taking advantage of him.
He told me he had 3 options with our situation. Either, 1) Keep it inside and try to come to terms with it on his own, ultimately being miserable. 2) Finally open up and talk to me about his feelings and insecurities or 3) Break up with me.
He said, the first option he has been trying to do but failing because he has felt terrible with the pit of his stomach constantly in knots. So that truly wasn’t an option. The third option, not really being an option because he loves me so much and can’t stand being apart from me for more than a day, breaking up wouldn’t resolve anything. So then, option 2 would be it. But he was having difficulty figuring out a way to open up to me. He ultimately also decided a conversation needed to be had because his gut said to trust me, that I wouldn’t do anything to hurt us or to cheat on him.
I listened to him. Didn’t get mad. Was only hurt because he was feeling hurt all these months about my comic book, my blog. I tried to reassure him that I never made fun of my dates, I was only telling a realistic view about dating and the things guys and girls do on dates. I never wanted to hurt anyone because the truth of the matter, I never want to be hurt.
Totally live by the Golden Rule….
Reassured him that down in SD, every guy that tried/attempted to hit on me, knew instantly that I was spoken for and didn’t stand a change. But I did help them score, for I was the ultimate wing woman!
I explained to him that for a relationship, for our relationship to work, we need to constantly communicate our feelings, be it good or bad. That when we feel annoyed or insecure about something, we need to address it and move on from there. Keeping things inside only leads to a huge blow up and resentment.
The best relationships are those that constantly want to keep the other happy but once you stop caring how the other is feeling, then the relationship is over.
He expressed how proud he was of me having published my comic book. He tried to hate the book and what it represented but he couldn’t because I loved it so much. He thought of how he could help me further the sales. He contemplated about buying 2 books a day to make it look like I was selling or he thought he would give me money so I could have my book printed. (WHAT AN AMAZING MAN!!!!) He wants me to succeed. He was just hurt that I kept it to myself for so long, kept it from him that when I revealed it was too late for him, he was already so deeply in love with me, there was no turning away.
I kept it away because I wasn’t sure of how I felt and there really isn’t a point to reveal until I was sure how I felt about him and where our relationship was going. Remember how I freaked out when he tried to kiss me on our 5th date!!!!!
When all was said and everything was laid out in front of us, we felt better. We understand where each other stands. What our feelings are and how to move forward. And we are moving forward. We even discussed briefly our living situation……
No, we are not moving together! He lives far away and I live here. And he wants to go back to school, so no further discussion will be had for another 3 years. Plus there is no ring on this finger, so there will be no moving in together!
I don’t want to move in until I’m married. I want it to feel different, I want to start building a life together when we are married. Not continue a life of roommates that now are official.
It’s old fashion, I know, but deep down I’m still a hopeless romantic who may have found her Prince! Now have to see how the rest of the Adventure plays out….
You know when you return home from being a way for a little bit, things just seem to hit you at full steam? Well that’s what happened after SDCC2014…
SDCC2014 was another learning and rewarding venture. I ended up not having to sleep on the floor!!!!! YAY!!!!!! I sweetly asked the maintenance man, who also delivered the towels, when you requested more, if I could have a roll away…. It never hurts to keep asking until someone eventually gives in, he said “Yes, how many do you need?” YES!!!!!!! No roughing it on the floor for me!!!!!!
I promoted like crazy. Mingled with everyone. Introduced myself to as many publishers as possible. Talk to artists and writers and creators. My skin grew thicker as some harsh comments were expressed about my comic book but over all, at the end of the end, I AM PROUD of what I put out there. No one can take away the hard work that I put into creating and self publishing.
Not everyone is going to like what I put out there. And I’m ok with that.
I love my book and will continue writing and publishing more stories because my hobby is fulfilling me and no one can take it away from me!
I have made it down for SDCC2014! It was a busy morning, with last minute errands and gatherings but I’m here!!! I nearly fell asleep on the road a couple of times. Didn’t get much sleep with the excitement of this weekend and a little hiccup with MG.
Our last night together for 5 days definitely didn’t go on as planned. We ended up spending most of it apart because I was caught up trying to accomplish something for my Comic Book. It was definitely not ideal and sadness was had but hopefully when we see each other in 5 days, we’ll be sooo ecstatic that the memory of how we spent the last night together will be erased…..
My first afternoon at SDCC, was spent wandering the streets. I wanted to get a feel of what was happening outside. I have decided that this year, I shall wander more in the fresh air then stay coupe up the air conditioned mayhem of the convention halls.
After my wander about, I met up with an amazing friend who is letting me crash in one of the rooms she has for her employees. So once again, I shall be sharing with adorable college boys! BUT this year, instead of 2, I get 4!!!! Now before someone starts thinking some naughty thoughts, I am happily involved and there is no time for an orgy on this work trip!
With 5 people in a room, it makes the sleeping arrangements a tad more complicated for technically only 4 should are allowed, due to fire hazards and let’s be real, the hotel wants to make more money by requiring you to book more hotel rooms for more people!
Request for a roll away denied due to that pesky fire hazard… So how do 5 people sleep in 2 double beds???? And the double beds are more like full sized beds, and 2 people barely fit comfortably…. That leaves the floor… And since I’m the crasher… Good thing I like my mattresses to be firm!
Sooo here is my bed….
Nice and cozy. I took all the blankets and comforters to create this little nook. It’s actually quite comfortable! Well… We’ll see how it feels when I actually have to sleep on it….
You have to suffer for your craft…. That’s the saying right???? Sleeping while surrounded by adorable college boys isn’t all that bed. And sleeping on the floor in a hotel room is my version of camping…. Definitely roughing it here!!!!
I am off to shower and prepare for what lays in store for me on my first night here….